Days 9 and 10

The best thing to happen to you this week.

The senior meeting at school on Thursday for sure. The meeting itself wasn't all that grand, but it was a huge reminder/ realization that I will be done with high school in May. It's such a huge relief, high school has been a tough fight for me. It's good to know that I've actually made it. 

3 things you are proud of about your personality.

1.) I'm fairly open minded and accepting. I don't care if you're gay, or transsexual, or what your religion is. If you're kind to me, I will return it. I'm just an overall nice person.

2.) I'm a realist. I'm able to see things exactly how they are, and I like that. I feel that it keeps me sane, and that it's better than getting my hopes up, or being super depressed/ upset over something. It is what it is. And that's that.

3.) I'm very upfront with people. If I have a problem with you, you'll be the first to know. I'm not afraid to voice my opinion, or call people out on their bullshit. If I see something that I know is wrong happening, I'll step in and correct it. I like to nip things in the bud, before they get out of hand.

Day 8

A date you would love to go on.

You know, I'm not actually quite sure about this one. I don't particularly like going out, I'm an introvert. I think I would like to stay in, cook a really yummy meal, and have some sort of movie marathon. It's simple, but I'm kind of a simple person. It doesn't take much to make me happy. 

Day 7

Your current relationship, if single, describe how single life is.

I am currently single, mostly because my ex-boyfriend is an ass, who made me feel very insecure sometimes. 

Single life was difficult at the beginning. It's hard going from talking to someone every day, to not talking to them at all. But, you know what? I can deal. I don't need him to be happy. And I will probably find myself more happy without him, than I actually was with him. 

So, single life is good. 

Day 6

Something you're currently worrying about?

Oh dear, there is a pretty big list. I have nasty anxiety, so worrying about things is an every day occurrence. Actually, I think my biggest worry is my anxiety. Sometimes it just really, really gets out of hand. 

There have been times where my anxiety has kicked up over just going out with friends, or going to school. It's rather obnoxious actually, and a lot of people think that I either fake it, or I'm just crazy. I think I make a lot of people mad, because I will cancel plans if I feel anxious. Most people don't understand, which I can understand, because these anxiety attacks are... irrational. Completely irrational.

I'm afraid that I will never be able to get past this. I really enjoy the thought of someday getting married, but then I imagine the anxiety attack that I'll probably have right there at the alter. I am being completely honest when I say that the thought of living with this for the rest of my life terrifies  me. 

Days 4 and 5

What do you find irritating about the same sex and opposite sex?

Female

1.) When girls do that playing "dumb" thing for attention, or because they think it's cute

2.) I also don't like when girls act like they're outrageously tough, and threaten to get into fights for dumb reasons. 

3.) I don't like girls (this goes for guys too, I guess) who break up with their significant other and the get back together every other week. 

Male

1.) When they yell, or swear a lot while watching football/ any other sport. My brother does this a lot, and it makes me want to kill him. 

2.) When guys act different around certain [groups of] people. (girls do this too, but I've seen more guys do it)

3.) Just like with girls, I don't like when guys act like they're super tough and try to pick fights. 

These lists would probably be a lot longer on any other day, but I have been secluded to my room, and away from people all day. 

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The person you currently like, and why you like them.

This one is... difficult, awkward, ect. I just got out of a relationship that lasted nearly two years. I don't have any new love interests, and I'm quite certain I still have very strong feelings for my ex-boyfriend. And that is all I have to say on the subject for the moment being.

Day 3

What kind of person attracts you?

Someone who is intelligent. I think that's the biggest, someone who practices correct grammar, some who knows what they're talking about. I also like people who are open minded, and mature. And someone who can fully accept all my flaws, insecurities, and my ridiculous interests. 

I don't think I have a huge list of certain standards. Smart, kind, and funny is what attracts me, which sounds very cliche. 

Day 2

How have you changed in the past two years?

Oh geez. Well, this is kind of a hard one. There has been a lot of ups and downs through the past two years. I met a boy. I lost my best friend, but made a new best friend in the process. My mom also ended up being unemployed for about a year...

1. I became a lot less selfish. I think a lot of that had to do with my mother being unemployed, and our lack of a secure financial income.

2. I think I also matured a lot. I started to care less about what people thought about me, and become more focused on myself, my family, and my true friends. I stopped making an effort to argue back with someone every time there was a conflict. 

3. I became a lot more accepting of myself. From my awful anxiety, to the weird nerdy-ness, to my self image. I think a lot of that had to do with my mother, Andreea, and Jacob. 

4. And finally, I learned how to be happy, even when everything in my life was not going as planned. 

I think that just about sums it up.